Samstag, 8. September 2007

Risk can bring great reward



Before I called my friend this morning, I was feeling peevish and lonely--I wanted her to call me. I knew my other friends here were not available today, so if I was going to be with someone, it would be her. A friend from home emailed me, and I told her how I was feeling. She replied, "Call her! It doesn't matter who initiates it--just go have fun".
Later I toldmy friendhow I'd felt (as part of a discussion about another friend who just waits for things to happen), andshe felt bad, but I told her no--that's what a victim does. Sits around waiting for people to come to her, and then moans about it when no one does. We talked about how scary it is to put yourself out there and risk and ask for something--but you know, when you do, sometimes wonderful things happen--like today. After I got home tonight, I let all the love I had received from my friends just sink in. I felt so thankful to God, and sorry that I so often believe the lie that I am all alone. I am not alone--God has given me lovely friends. I hope I remember this the next time I am feeling scared to reach out, and that I'll do it anyway, trusting that I will come away filled.